Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? Or fell for your best friend in the entire world, then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else?
Have you denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid… afraid of what we don’t know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.
Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them… when the moment you can’t feel them under your fingertips you miss them?
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; Saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest to say. Don’t be afraid to tell someone you love himor her. If you do, they might break your heart… but if you don’t, you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? You can’t tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own… when you least suspect it, or even when you don’t want it to.
I just stumbled upon someone's blog and i found the above. I believe most of us, or everyone of us, can relate to that matter like this..
Well, i have nothing to add to what that was copied. Being emotional at 12.14am whilst everyone is asleep and nothing seems to be interesting on tv isn't an ideal way for me to end my day. So, anyways..
I've been thinking that maybe it wasn't just a good idea to stop school for one semester after all. I miss school- the intellectual environment, the days of discussion, the time in the library and my university mates.
Everyone of them is in school and busy with projects and reports and are only free on weekends, many a number are really sweet to make an effort to keep in contact with me and ask me out for a drink or two. There are absolutely no complaints about my friends; as friends, i'll give them a 110%! :D
The problem lies with me. I figured i enjoy being a part of something bigger than myself- be it a school, a company or an organisation and the only thing keeping me sane now is my faith and from faith stems my optimism which then fuels my everyday with spirit. I miss all of those who have walked my years of college and university with me. I miss them terribly- especially the times we have drinking some funky-juice-concortion the Arts Canteen comes up with, the complaints from the CMN majors, the lamentation that our Japanese teacher is speaking too fast for comprehension, the early hours, the late hours. Just about everything we complain about - is missed by me.
That is not to say i am not enjoying my days now. I am. I really am (: I realised alot about myself, made new friendships and am ravishing the days in my life. Such is life, you move on and yet ever so often you still will look back and ask.. 'what if.'
Well, let this had better be the last time; I'll be damn if i were to let this happen again.
Thank goodness for this blog! :)
