Friday, January 25, 2008

chomp chomp chomp...

i can't sleep tonight! haha. Had such an eventful evening with mah girls and their boyfriends that i can't sleep la! Anyways, just just surfing some online forum when i found this thread that asks..

"Anything that makes you cry in your heart?"

Almost everyone's answer was ubiquitous - lamenting about loving someone who doesn't love them back. And then, i read this..

"I keep failing my midterms... please cry for me"

hoho! Cute la.

Anyway, i realised today that i've alot of people around me who speak Korean laaaaaaa!!! Like 'moo-lah' Korean language i am. Went for Dinner at some interesting named place - Gary Kim's - and then we went Timbre @ Arts House.

Totoro had to leave early la. Then, i was left with 4 korean-speaking people!!!!!

Neh! haha! But i really enjoyed myself tonight with my two special girlfriends. (: Its hard to find really good friends in university, most of us stll hang out with our college friends or cca-mates etc. So, it means alot to me that i've met two special girlfriends & Totoro in school! :P

Okay, with my limited knowledge in Korean..

Yorubun, kamsahamida! :)

We have a date this Cheena New Year yo!

Yakusoku!! (^-^)/~

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Thanks yo!

This evening, i checked my email and there was a comment alert from friendster. Usually, i ignore whatever stuffs that have been sent to be by the oh-so-yesterday-friendster. But, this comment from a temple senior whom i respect very much was worth the trip down to friendster.com

This was what she wrote for me..

"Hi ah mae, tat was a long time back when we always go Home Visit together.Then we are in e same team in kenshu.."Mad Cow"...etc...we have a lots of fun and at the same time learnt from each other. You must take care of yourself, i know tat u r very busy with study and at the same time need to in-charge of TP student....xing ku ni le. But i believe there is a kind of man zhu gan when you c the students grow in yrs to come. Isshonin Ganbatte ne!!!"

There are some people whom i want to grow up to be. One of those people would include her. haha. What was she talking about when she said it has been hard on me? What i do, is nothing compared to what she does and yet this sweet and beautiful lady still comes by to leave an encouraging and heartfelt post for me. Thank you so much. We had very very lovely memories together and these memories affirm to me that she posesses much treasures of the heart and a heart of gold.

I like the way she talks to everyone - with sincerity, kindness and compassion. Its that soft look in her eyes. I don't have that, because i may be lacking in that three deparments. haha. But, i want to be like her - a person who becomes more humble after achieving more in life - just like the rice stalk that bends more as more grains germinate on it.

Yu Fen Jie, Its been eight years since we really spent time together. But, for you, i am more than willing to wait for another eight years but if we are really busy, another 800 years then. We each have our duties and responsibilities. I know we can't spend as much time as i want us to but i treasure you very much as a sister, a mentor, a senior and as my zenchishiki. I will put down everything to help you if u ever need me to. In the meantime, as you've said -

isshoni Gambette yo!

(:

Thursday, January 17, 2008

3 degrees of Seperation.

Hey! I'm in early today! Had a good siesta this afternoon so i'm in a mood to say something more than 'i'm tired' :P

So many things have been happening so quickly this month! Its almost crazy! But, hey - i'm loving it! I realise one thing important- that being appreciative is actually the key to one being happy and not having so much that it could last u for 10 lifetimes. Just a simple sense of gratitude neh (: Wonder how it took me so long to realise that. Maybe its because it took me so long to learn how to appreicate and accept things. But, i'm definitely learning. Learn fast Mae! haha (:

Yesterday, i went for some karaoke with some University peeps. Its sometimes cool how you are a friend of another and how people can actually be link to you in some complex web of friendship or another. But, i think i should get use to it considering how small Singapore is - they say six degrees of seperation - but here, its probably only 2-3 degrees of seperation.

Thats how close i am to you and you are to me. haha.

Well, the other day i was in NUS to submit my student exchange documents and on my way out from the Japanese Studies department i met this long haired girl with a very Japanese air to her. I had thought she was Japanese! We got into the same lift and i asked her "which floor?" since i was nearer to the lift buttons.

She: "i don't know"

Me: "hahaha. where you wanna go? Canteen is on the second floor bla bla."

She: "Where are you going?"

Me: "History department to collect something."

She: "Oh! Are u a History major?"

Me: "Nope. Japanese studies Major"

She: "Ok lor, i follow you"

Me to myself "This girl is cool lah. (: "

We became fast friends and on our very first very interesting meeting we chatted for an hour! From 3pm to 4pm! I asked for her number as i had enjoyed talking to her and then she told me she couldn't get mine as her phone had dropped into the toilet bowl. hahaha (:

I was starting to like this new friend of mine even more!

Well, apparently this other friend of mine knows her. And i received a very hyped up call from a very excited Totoro aka Jansen (:P) one night.

Jansen: "Mae!!! You know Wan Wei ar? The one who drop her phone in the toilet bowl?"

Me: "Oh yar. I met in the lift the other day in school."

Jansen: "wahahahhahahahahahahahahaha"

I forgot what he had said, all i remember was that he was very very very happy and sounded very very excited upon realising that we are actually linked up in the friendster kind of way! haha.

Next thing i know, we were at Cash Box Karaoke yesterday singing to our heart's delight along with other friends of Wan Wei's. The Karaoke joint was darn cool. I think it specially caters to Japanese people as the Japanese songs are endless but the Chinese and English song list ends very soon. haha. A pity i only know a handful of Japanese songs but everyone was very game and very sporting. So, we were encourage to 'never mind la and anyhow sing.'

And anyhow sing i did (:

Oh well, that was yesterday's karaoke. San san san, i'll make it a point to bring you to cashbox soon! You'll be so fasinated by the Japanese MTVs and the songs la. haha. No more scenes of penguins walking around on the beach as with the KBox music videos. hehe (:

"Sakura Sakura..lalalalalalala." Their Milo was blah though. $6.00 for a cup of dyed-brown-hot-water. ): heh.

Oh! I met up with my sis -Dolldoll- on Monday! ^-* Super fun la the KTV! We just mangled all our songs and screamed along when the notes got a little high! *Gaffaws! Dai Ai Ling's Tui De Ren is a killer song to nail and with more screeching practices, i'm sure i'm able to sing it in front of more people other than my best friends and sisters. haha (:

Anyways, after that we went to Genki Sushi for some sushi. haha. like DUH. She introduced some salmon wrapped sushi and it made me super happy la (: hahaha. We talked alot while eating at the sushi counter. Okay. I have to stop here though i have more to say about our conversation.

Mum wants to go for supper! (: *yeay!

haha! Good that i have a greedy mum like myself.

:P

Oyasumi.

neh.

(:

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

sleep talk!

(:

Hello!

I wanna say something! haha But, i'm too tired. (-_-)Zzz..

Tis the joy to share.

I wonder how's February gonna be like..

Oyasumi neh!

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

tsu ka re ta!

i'm starting to feel jaded.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Smile beautifully.

Tomorrow, everyone's gonna start school. Feels kinda odd that i'm not staring school like everyone else. But, i feel that this actually is not such a bad thing afterall. I have quite a good feeling about this and i hope i can keep this up for these many months to come. Lets keep our fingers crossed okay? (:

Kensuke has been keeping in touch with me and boy, am i happy that he does! (: I miss my chat everything under the sun partner and my best friend :) He wants to come to Singapore soon -eh! like whatever for la! I reckon its because he misses Laksa. haha. Greedy Kensuke! S$850 just for a bowl of laksa u are craving for?

In Singapore, we will say. "Siao la u" :P

Anyway, i will try my best to delay my flight if he does come. Hey Ken! Are u reading this?! If you are!! U had better be touched i tell u! :P I want to bring you to East Coast Park, a place i had planned to bring you before you went back to Japan last month but didn't have a chance to. I lost that chance then, but will try my best this time to not lose it again. You have to try the food there and enjoy East Coast Park! haha. The waters may be a lil dirty! haha but, theres still some meaning to go there la. haaa. :P

Singapore is not all about Laksa you know! (:

Hey! Today, i had to actually conduct the choir i am in and teach them!! Gosh! It was such an interesting experience! :) I really enjoyed it. A pity that i don't know music, because if i knew, i would have been able to contribute more to today's practice. I'm really grateful for everyone's cooperation and forgiveness towards my incompetancy in helping you guys sing well.

Alice, our Choir secretary msn me just now saying that

"today you teach very good."

I was so touched by her kind words. I don't know what to feel. Normally, i would have felt happy or just say 'nonono' when people compliment me about my performance in anything. But, today it was very tough for me to stand in front of my choir & teach them. I really tried very hard and i knew i actually sucked as a teacher. I didn't know what notes alto, bass and tenor had to sing. Didn't knew the tempo of all the songs and when to repeat what part but everyone was compassionate enough to still listen to me and respond positively.

I'm humbled by her generous words and my choir's magnanimousness.

I will give my best towards learning music from now on. :) I'll pick up my guitar and that 'tao gey' stuffs again! ^^


:)

Smile beautifully, think positvely and never lose that spark in your eye.

Oh ya. To all my friends.

It not good idea to go to Chinatown on a Sunday.

It really not good idea.

Trust me. I was there. And.. oh boy oh boy oh boy oh boy.

Singapore has a big darn population distribution problem.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

You've (really) got mail!

Mail arrived yesterday (: Hello HSBC! I was in the doctor's room for a check up when i received the much anticipated call

Just 3 words

"Ya. Its Here."

And i went "Really? Woohoo! Yeay!" well, looking back, i like to think that everybody else in the room was feeling happy for me though i had totally disregarded their existance and made an utter nuiscance of myself.

Yeay! (: Thank you so much everyone. I realised so much more about through your concerns and actions.

Through this episode i was very touched by the many i love. I'll keep this memory in my mind and my heart never forgetting that parents do indeed give their best for their kids and family is the most basic and yet most important social unit anyone can ever ask for.

Mail's finally here.*sigh of relief.

Everyday this week is a tired day. But, today, everything culminated. Not only was i sleepy, i felt listless and sluggish too. yuck. Not good feeling. I believe i'll be turning in by 11pm tonight. haha. that'll be my earliest sleeping time so far this year ^^

Sleep is good. I like sleep! haha

Oh! Yesterday i went for my elementary school gathering. It was cool la, seeing everyone again. I see most of them around the neighbourhood but there are some i've not seen since i was 12 la! Gosh! That was like almost 9 years now. Well, it was nice to know that many of them are still the way they were 9 years ago - down-to-earth, unpretentious and comfortable to be with. Though, there are some things i rather leave in the past, its nice to relive the prefered parts of it and yesterday i was able to do just that. I apologise for being sleepy yesterday peeps! But, i promise i would be more awake and more of a noise-maker the next time we meet (:

Just don't take another 9 years to organise a gathering (:

Ok, i'm fainting now. Gotta snozz.

Oyasumi..

neh. (:

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

You've got mail (:

The law is called mystic for a reason, called true due to aplenty of justifications and wonderful for the boundless happiness it gives you.

The last two days went by in a frenzy, in a good way though knowing that my busy-ness is for a worthy cause. Demo, there was a constant worry that lingered in the back on my mind - my certification of financial resource have yet to arrive from our bank in Hong Kong and my date of submission was 10th of January. Everything else is in check, haha as far as i know for now. (:

I told Gohonzon about it whenever i had the chance to. But this afternoon, there was still no mail from HSBC and it is already the 8th of January. Then, this evening i went out with three of my zenchi-shikis and lamented to them about my concerns. (: They were so cute la. We were discussing maybe i wasn't meant to leave for Japan to study and that something bad might happen to me if i went hence, plans were made to prevent me from going. And then, we went on to discuss about the bad stuffs that may happen. haha.

Well, i went home feeling very touched by their special way of comfort and with the mindset that i will accept and not begrudge against things i cannot control because i have tried my best.

And guess what happened?

I was checking my email today and the first email that opened was an email from the Internation Relation Office of NUS saying..

"Dear Yap Mae

Please submit your application by the 14th January 2008."

*mae chuckles (:

Thank you so very much (:

HSBC! I'm still waiting my mail ^^

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Bag went boom!

i really should be sleeping.. (:

But nooooooo. i had to come online.

I'm enjoying this 1990's song by Savage Garden titled "Santa Monica" an unassuming title but a very pleasant song to the ears. You know, sometimes, when u listen to the song u almost have no clue as to what the singer is singing. But, once you check out the lyrics, the whole song takes on a whole new facet and meaning to you. I'm looking forward to checking out the lyrics of this song. However, i think i'll be kicking myself later when i wake up at 7am for doing so. (:

Sometimes, being appreciative for the things you have makes one happy already. -> haha. some random thought in my mind.

Anyway, my bag's zip burst today!! hahaha! Its about time huh peeps! (: i can hear almost all of you saying ' i knew that would happen some day!' hahaha! (: One of the job hazards of being a tution teacher, you just have to lunged everything with you to entertain, teach and entertain and entertain and amuse the children (:

But, i'm loving my days - Its special you know- the way they smile back especially after i smiled into their eyes for doing small lovable things only a young kid would do. How precious is a pure heart and innocent mind indeed. Never mind the bag, i can always get a new one -haha! Casse should be on the alert now! :P

No more Bugis Streets bags! Me think we should head to the first floor of Takashimaya ad get some REAL bags. hahaha.

Like real.

(:

Drop by drop,
The water, fills the jar.
- Be paitent. Have a heart that endures.

i must go and sleep now. :)

Oyasumi neh!

Sunday, January 6, 2008

love love me!

Contrary to what my friend Arie thinks! I totally love to do surveys la! I replied one of his and now i'm kinda in the mood to discover more stuffs about myself, i wouldn't know if i never had these sorta survey to question me. Well, i foound one on friendster, and yep!

Mae's road of discovery of herself. *grins*

1. Were you smiling when you woke upthis morning?

hahahahaa. Really no. Who smiles when they have to wake up in the morning!!

2. When was the last time you metsomeone new?
Friday. My Uni buddy's boyfriend.

3. When did you last eat pizza?

Monday! (: I remember yummy days!

4. Do you drink beer?* yeap.

5. Do you wash your own clothes?

nope.


6. Are you any good at poker?*

no good.


7. What do you want more than anything?*

Discipline and probably a new laptop. (:


8. Are you tired?*

hell yeahh.

9. Besides your bed, what is yourfavorite thing in your room?*

Peanut and Butter


.10. Pepsi or Coke?* coke.


11. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?

No


12. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?*

Do i look like a person who enjoys pain?


13. Taco Bell or McDonald's?*

Mac's!


14. Are you restless?*

Not these days (:

15. Is your computer desktop or a laptop?

Both.

16. How many friendster views do youhave?*

i don't care.

17. Want to be a prince/princess?*

Only to certain people, yes. Princesses usually don't have very happy lives do they?

18. Do you believe dreams come true?*

YES

19. Last song you heard?*

Can You Celebrate - Namie Amuro

20. Do you like Batman?*

no. hes one dark kid.

21. Who is in the room with you?*

Some beatle named jack.

22. what r u wearin on ur foot?*

Dirt.

23. What was the last thing you ate?*

Swenson's Ice-cream

24. What were you doing before this?*

Sleeping in a car

25. What is the closest item near youthat is blue?*

hehe. i don't care.

26. How are you feeling today?*

somehow, over the clouds.


27. What instant messaging service doyou use?* msn.


28. what is ur fav website?*

porn! waahhhhh! Thinks you never knew about me huh! hahahaha (: Kidding! I like nus mail cos it brought me aplenty of great news recently.

29. Whose house were you at last night?*

*secret* hahaha. I was at house of the Buddha's.

30. What do you wear more, jeans orsweatpants?*

Guilty of jeans.


31. Where's your favorite place to be?*

Actually, as corny as this is..anywhere with anyone i like to be with.

32. Where did you get the shirt you'rewearing?*

Isetan

33. Where was your default pic taken?*

44. Do you believe love at first sightexists?

Its not love. its lust.

45. Do you believe that you can changesomeone?*

Why would u want to change anyone? Maybe u should just change yourself or stay away from that person in the first place.

45. What are you going to do after youdo this survey?*
Bathe then sleep..and hit my sttoooopid younger brother for chasing me off the computer!!!



my younger brother is a pig who eats like one but never gains weight and never looks like one.
i am horribly jealous.

(:


dumb. dumb. dumb. younger brother is a pig. :D
He is impaitent like a pig, eats like one and soon, he'll roll in te mud like one.
He is char siew.
He like char siew.

I'm irritating just like him. hurhur.

I love my brother (:

Hair-pee new year.

Happy New Year. Another depressing year has gone by and we have welcome yet another despondent year fated to be plauged with feelings of hopelessness and haplessness. Yeay. Throw a ball and waste your hard-earned money when inflation is rampant and oil prices hitting $100/barrel. yep.

Happy New Beginnings to you people!

New Year and new hair for me! haha. Happy New Hair :P I shall not rave about my haircut on my blog but people have been commenting that it gives me life (?) and that hints that my previous long strands had made me looked dead huh. Thanks people. :P

Gosh, these days have been real hectic. Sigh, the really nice long holidays where everything seems to have had gone with the wind seems to be over with the first day of the new year being the pivotal point of change. Somehow, i'm really happy. I find myself constantly in the state of rapture despite the many hours clocked.

Well, i watched "Heroes" yesterday and Linderman (?) was telling Nathan that..

A person can only lead two types of lives, a meaningful one or a happy one and both don't go together. Because when you are happy you don't think about the past or the future you live to enjoy the time there and then. But, if you want a meaningful life you'll spend your time reflecting on your past and obsessing about future finding out how u can do better.

Naturally, all of us what a meaningful and happy life. But, if you had to choose, what would you choose? eh, I just hope that Linderman (?) is wrong on what he said.

sleepy...