hmm..

you know i read somewhere that Japanese people love to blog and according to statsitics they have one impressive pool of bloggers who actually regularly update their blog. On top of that, studies reveal that the Japanese bloggers, more often than not, blog about the mundane ongoings of life. Nothing sensationalistic, nothing special and nothing particularly worthy for you to sue for malignment. I had thought that was interesting.

That is, until , i found a Japanese person's blog.

Woah. It was all about him and him and even more him. However, it isn't a display of narcissism i am sure.

Interestingly, his blog seems to be an assurance of his existance to him and that there was a meaning to everything he does and puts effort into. Be it in the name of his club, academic pursuits, personal discipline and social life. Maybe, we have been so disenchanted and conditioned so much that us leaving blogs behind assures or even comforts us that we are infact still individuals who are different from everybodyelse in every possible way. His blog entries are his own and his own perspective of life. Hence, his blog like him, is special in its own way. Sounds almost sad. haha, Maybe when the time comes i could do my thesis on the Japanese Blogging Behavior and what... (confidential^^ hey! its my possible thesis u know!^^)

That having said, we all want to be heard don't we? Personally, i want to hear what i have to say more than being heard by others. I ramble too much, rant on far too often that ultimately, me and the unfortunate other party won't exactly know what i was trying to get at. Its always the case of, "i think she was trying to get at this..but i'm not too sure." haha (: Unfortunate other party, my mouth works faster than my head so often. Please be lenient! (^-*)/~


I remembered in my elementary school and high school days we always had this component of our English Language examination where we had to have a conversation on a certain topic with our teachers. The teacher will posed a question to us and we have to talk it out with her and we would be graded on the quality of our response. A pity that we weren't graded on the quantity of our response! Well, there was once, i had this question-

"So, do u think we should ban smoking in all public places?"

As far as i can recall, my response was a yes and then my mouth went on auto-pilot mode! Yikes! I was yakking to myself for a few minutes before realising it and i finally stopped myself and asked the two unfortunate listening teachers "oh! what was the question again?"

You go mae. HA! One thing leads to another my dear. Not one thing leads to everything else that doesn't matter. Oh! Theres another something i read that would be useful!

If one is not quite sure about how one should phrase one's response to sound articulate and coherent. The person's advice to one was - don't respond.

Heh. Risk being rude than being stoooopid. I shall drill that into my thick numbskull and practice it when circumstances call for it. (:

But, my dear poor unfortunate friends, thats only reserved for strangers or acquaintances. :) I promise my mouth will still be auto-pilot mode when i'm with u guys (: *grins*


Tonight, Ngak is gonna perform in Timbre's @ ArtHouse. Er jie says he is hot and ish a good singer. Since its from er jie's mouth, i believe he should be not-very-young too^^ :P But, Ngak! here we come to hear u 'chuo gua.' (:

hehehe!

Hey dude! Tis for you! :)

you know, theres this friend of mine.

We get along very well and he is receptive and thankful to the little things i do for him - be it my unworthy advice or my little actions. I've never quite met a guy like him before - filial, humble, compassionate and gentle-menly. And whats sad is, today, he described himself as a 'ugly big fat liar.'

Funny how people can only see the worse in themselves and see the best in others they care for. My safe bet is that most of us don't love themselves more than they love others.

Deplorable? Yes.
Exclusive? No.

I'm guilty of that too. And i'm guilty of more. I'm guilty of not telling him of how highly i think of him - how much i respect his virtues, principles and determination. Hey dude, and did i mention to you that people in our organisation have been telling me that you are cute? Ah gosh, no! And that so many people have told me that you have beautiful eyes!

I forgot to tell you all of that, i missed the chance to let you know that you are better than you deem yourself to be and more significant to me than you think you ever will be. More importantly, i missed the chance to let you feel better about yourself.

Thanks for your compliments for me - i "possess the charm of a mature girl"? HAHA Where did you learn that from? In restropect, i think u had just described me to ooze the charm of a mother! *grins

Well, truth be told, I find it hard to appreciate compliments, but i will start to say a thank you sincerely for yours. Because,i want you, to start appreciating yourself more.

Take care my very special Virgo friend. We'll be in each others' lives for a long long time to come and i like that thought of that! You are a joy to have around and i have aplenty to learn from you! Lets guide each other in our journey of practice, study and faith!

can't think of one.

I enjoy reading blogs (: I enjoy them if they are not random like.

Blah.

Good today.

bye.

Hey! We are not writing haiku poems here man. haha. write more la! ^^ Tindome..you know who you are (:

Anyway, i was reading Sansan's blog entry that was written in mandarin. And by golly! I actually understood every single word that linguist was writing la! haha! Eh! Sansan writes like a poet even when its written in mandarin. *impressed impressed*

I remembered back in high school, i used to memorise long long chinese sentences to make my chinese composition sound a little more sophisticated. My efforts were futile, cause i can only remember the first few words and the last few words but nothing in between. HA! what a loser huh. ^^

which may have had been a blessing in disguise after i realise that there is actually such a thing called plagiarism in university. BLAH. Wikipedia became my friend no more. ):

Actually, i'm kinda stumped. I'm filling in the Kyoto University application form and i'm quite at a loss in the section.- Why did you choose Kyoto University?

Well, i don't know, maybe its because its in Kyoto? Almost everyone who has been to Kyoto told me that it is a beautiful & rife in tradition kinda place. But, nothing more in depth. I bet everyone writes that in their application. So, how can i be different?

Anyone?

手伝いください!!

Think think mae!! Think hard.

I think i shouldn't be thinking on this, but using my heart, however small it is, to answer that question sincerely.

heh. Before that,I think i'll go eat some food first^^


(:

Must be the rain.

It must be the rain,
it can't be me.

It must be the clouds,
dark as can be.

Pouring out symphonies
it cannot speak.

Dampening my mood,
even as the rain ceased.

Really,
it just can't be me.


Water, water and more water have been poured on our small little island these days. Is it just me and my speculations or is this an effect of global warming? Aiyaya, haha. I don't want to dwell so much on that, i think we have had enough forums and popular culture mediums dwelling on that. For now, i am just very thankful for the nice shopping complexes that incubate me from the weather outside.

Sigh, for now i'll just have to be content with running like a hamster on the threadmills. (: I wanna go swimming already! Crystal! When will you sneak me into Aranda country club huh? Lets go get our hair bleached from the chlorine in the pool and sun burnt from choosing to swim at crazy times like 12pm - 2pm! (which are but of course the crazy timings u always propose!) :P

i have so many things to say, but i don't know how to start and how to.

well, one thing that tickled me today..

If it look like tang yuan,
then, it is tang yuan!

:D

2 sides to the coin.

NUS has accepted my Student exchange program application and the person-in-charge said that she is pleased to inform me so. (don't every formal email states so? :P)

I was pleased too, till i saw that i hadn't got the 3 Japanese universities of my choice. But, that isn't bothering me now, cause i know everything happens for a reason and i had at one stage really liked the idea of entering Kyoto University. So, i will make the best out of this now. I'm happy enough with just being able to go to Japan and study, the school is secondary.

What is bugging me now is the administrative matters.. *deadpans* Forms here and there, certifications here and there. Also, i need someone to declare me sane and healthy. Oh! For once, i will not going to the doctors to beg for a medical cerfiticate but get to get myself declared as mentally sound and genki! (: No more acting this time. *evil smiles

I'm not a very meticulous person, so careful i will be.

4.49am now..can't believe i'm still alive and typing considering the type of sleep i had gotten in Malaysia. Ah well, the lures of the internet world.

(:

Later, theres singing classes on and then, some catching up with my college peeps. Wonder if i can keep myself in a good mood. AH! i know! Double shot espresso! and then i'll be (O.O) heh.

ok. i'm rambling now.

it not good.

Good night world. i mean, good morning.

Thank you.

Friendship is priceless, cliche? Try this other cliche: How do u value love, care and thoughtfulness? I can't put any amount too great to it.

My secondary school days are made the best days of my student life with you all around. The bliss and warmth that overwhelmed me on my way home last night affirmed the commitment to this friendship.

Minna san, domo arigato gozaimasu.

I've been out of your sights, but now i realise i've not been out of your minds and hearts. Thank you for the special gift, thank you for your sincerity. Thank you for letting me realise that i've been an idiot and not appreciating you guys as much as i should or could.

I will focus on the important now. And i know for sure, you guys are important.
A big hug to u all and a heartfelt thank you. (^-^)/~

Tanoshi-katta.
Hontoni-Shiawase yo!

(:

Hoi ^^

what does one say in one's first blog entry? Should i start off with a brief introduction of myself? ha! better not, will bore u all to death. Fine, since i am here, i had better reason why i am here!

Well, firstly, i like to attribute it to the fact that i am talkative. HA! understatement. I am super talkative. I am very excitable by nature (don't think dirty Casse - :) ) and i talk alot - not necessarily very sensible things but fun nonetheless (thats what i like to think la)

If i'm quiet, there is either something very wrong with YOU (*sniggers) or i'm just plain tired. :) More often than not, its not me, its you *evils.

i shall not digress.

Okay, so i have alot of things to purge out of myself therefore this blog. However, i refuse to sound so shallow henceforth, more importantly, i believe that by keeping a blog i will be able to improve my calibre of the english language and write coherently and be more effective in bringing my point across to people. Now, don't that reason sound more noble than the stated above? :)

Right, actually my main impetus of this blog is to tell YOU and YOU and YOU YOU YOU about whats going on with my life. Not that i think that people will be interested to know about me and my mundane life, but i hope by knowing that people i love are reading about me will help alleviate any lonliness and displacement i might feel when i am away in China and Japan.

I have never been away from my loved ones for so long - my religion, family and my friends. Gosh, as much as i like to think i am independent, most often, reality proves me wrong.

As much as i hate to admit it, I am what Takeo Doi and all adults deadpan as being AMAE: reliance and dependence on the love and warmth of others. I believe all of us are, but sometimes, the thought of losing someone in my life scares me so much that it scared me into wanting to do something about it.

To do what about it, i don't know, but i'll take one step at a time, see the world experience the outside of my incubator and then come home and be a more valuable person. Hopefully, a wiser and more mature person.

It breaks my heart to leave Singapore when the time comes, when everything single damn thing i love and love and love is here. Even the thought of it now breaks me. See how AMAE i am! :P

So, this blog will be a little home-coming for me.

so, a good hello to you reading this, if you are, you are probably one the reason why i keep this blog alright. (^-^)/~

I'll give anything to hug anyone of you then :)